Sunburnt on Sunday, June 27, 2004
i am very very frustrated today. First and foremost, the journal i had juz written was gone due to some stupid popup. I hate popups!!!
I wrote a pretty long one, about my thoughts on church and life, about how church has evolved to become a home for Pharisees. Just look at "city harvest". A church, to my meagre knowledge, is never meant to be so people-oriented. I dun really fancy people who got so carried away when they worship God that they have to fall down on their knees, gabbering in some so-called "tongues", throw their hands up in the air in exhiliration. I prefer a kind of quiet worship, where it is a peaceful, tranquil, serene, whatever you call it, personal experience to praise the Lord for the things around you, so as not to take people or things around you for granted.
Each one of us has this vaccum in us. Science, sex, and achievements in life sometimes dun answer to this need that we have. We want to believe that there is God, in order for miracles to happen, in order for someone sick to be up and kicking happily, in order some mistakes you have made in life to be reversed. When i was in sec3, some stranger on the street share to me about God. I was curious then. I met up with that guy a couple of times who later became my Bible teaching teacher. I was kinda fascinated how much though-provoking tenets were inside this small little book. I was amazed at how the values relate to me in life. i do believe that all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, i do believe in one God who is omnipotent and omniscience. I went to attend Church after that...
A year after that, i feel so drained of my energy, having to attend youth fellowship and foundation classes on saturday and sunday sermon. My weekend is burnt "for God sake". Every sunday before the sermon, people sitting beside you will ask you to share something God had enlightened you this week. Sometimes you juz have nothing to share..sometimes you are distracted by issues in you life, sometimes you juz dun feel like talking to that guy next to you. Sometimes i am juz tired. The worse to come is when church organise outreach events, and they have to make a big publicity via street evangelism, or by giving the pamplets.
I have not been attending church for almost 2 years. i feel that i can't have that commitment to attend church, to follow the teachings. People will say.."juz pray that God will give you the determination"..so cliche. .
Churches now have evolved to become a fashion statement for teens. Years down the road, dun be suprised to see CHCC membership card holderships. City Harvest Church Club. Pastors can sing, so i dun see a reason why this can't happen.
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