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My recruits passed out again. Having that as my 4th batch, i am numb to any nostalgic emotions. Seeing my recruits hugging one another, sharing the joy of having completed their bmt, i congratulate them silently in my heart.
Walking to the parade square with my other colleagues, my recruits started to lift us up and throw us into the air.
Back in tekong, rsm never allow the recruits to do that, apparently due to some past accidents of instructors landing on the ground. I couldn't imagine that happening.
Now in this combat unit, the men actually throw us up into the air. It was a very funny feeling, having to be in the middle of the air for a split second and back to the arms of your men.
As usual, there were flashes after flashes of photos being taken and hands were shaken, words of congratulation somehow automatically flow from my mouth.
After they were gone, i have to pack my stuff, to read myself to go back to bmtc. I am really going to miss this place, i told myself. 4 months spent here, months of forging friendships with my encik and oc, months of grumbling and complaints all to be gone at that moment.

I am in the ferry, together with that enormous heavy duffel bag, that really took my breath away while carrying it. Back in to my home sweet home, i was told the next enlistment was the following day. I told my oc that i am clearing my 5 day off. He told me to come back the following day to help out. I have no choice but to comply.
Time flies and here i am back at home, indulging in my breaks after taking a harsh monointake recruits.

I hate to make friendships and to go away from them. It was jus like in sispec bslc and aslc. Having made many good buddies who chiong sua and suffer together, i have to be posted to new places to make new frens. A man shouldn't be such a snag, some will say...
SNAG= sensitive new age guy.

I dun care, i am who i am. I dun live for ppl , i live for myself. As long there is accountability to my conscience, i have no worries.

Nick was out in the sun at 5:01 PM .

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